Harsh reality

Hello all! It's like 4am now, I know I haven't posted for longgggg so here is one, trying t slack off while reading some gp. ( and apparently I keep having problems loading photos into blogger zzz)

Been getting back papers and they must have been the worst... Seriously, they're so terrible I honestly am, beginning to doubt myself now. I know I shouldn't and that I must stay strong like for O's... But omg this is a totally different scenario. To those who don't believe that 6 pointers will end up failing their exams right up t prelims, you just haven't met me yet-.- hahahaha idk, it has hit me with the reality that maybe I shouldn't even have fought so hard during O's just t do this well because when you're up there, there are even higher expectations for you. And I dont know, I seem to be losing myself amidst all this crazy mugging we've been indulging in....

What am I seriously doing?! I'm not trying to sound so screwed up and get all your sympathy. Honestly, no. But perhaps I am finally letting a part of my emotions speak... This insecurity is seriously overwhelming me, everyday I'm like thinking of the worst scenario... Ok fine not everyday, probably that 5min when we got back our paper.

And yes, I did break down. Don't call me weak because I know very well ... But it's just that surge of disappointment I guess, now I'm moving on strong, I'm not going t falter.

Yes we may break down and cry but life goes on. Every morning I wake up so freaking tired but I remind myself" be harsh on yourself now or else reality will be harsh to you next year"

Yes, this is the way t go!!!!!!

Anyway, our class practically topped every subject from the back again. NICE.

Alright, I'll end here. It's 31 days t A levels, it's all coming too soon... Wish me luck be cos I'm really in need of them rn. N all th best everyone ~^^